Settling down

I talked to my coll today and he was asking me if I have a bf yet and it was a bit stressful. He told me to really look and not be afraid. 

I met my friends for dinner and L tried to set me up with her fiancé's friend, I didn't realise until she started winking. 

Talked to M and as usual, she always has got something nice to say and I actually teared while talking to her. Here's what it is...

I seriously don't think that anyone else will see me the way you did. You must be the kindest person on earth. Thank you for always seeing me as more than I am. 

I just don't know how I would allow myself to fall or reciprocate anyone else's feelings again.