(continuation from the previous blog)
Too tirred to think too. Anyway, what I wanted to say was that... sometimes, my friends are so nice that I'm not sure if I deserve it. I appreciate it a lot but really, do I deserve that? I feel that as time passes, my character sucks even more. Sometimes I enjoy being evil but sometimes... I'll wonder why I've become like that and wish that I didn't. Argh... what conflict. I just wanted to say that my friends, each of you, keep me from being too terrible with ur action and words and I feel bad about it yet I appreciate it. Thanks :)

this is some horrible fixation which i can't tear myself away from