A new month is approaching, and I am still nowhere closer to my choice. Is my heart safe? I still feel like I'm not ready. I came across a picture earlier and before my conscious mind realised that I was looking at you, my heart just skipped a beat. The past few months down the drain. 

Yesterday, A told me about a conversation she had with T. T was asking her if I was ready to date and that I'm a perfectly nice person who takes good care of people, why am I not seeing anyone. Strangely, I feel no pleasure in knowing that a pretty cute boy thought I was nice cos... I'm not always nice and it gives me a lot of stress to keep up to a certain way of behaviour, just cos that's the general impression I should always uphold. I'm not a nice person. So what if I am? You said the same thing to me a few months back and so what? The result was the advice to find someone good. The thing is, being around you made me a nicer person.