I'm blogging twice in a day. Yes, I'm unhappy. I can't stand myself most of the time. Especially when I see you. Shall I go? tick. Shall I stay? tock. Who are you? tick. What is it about you? tock.

I'm almost too afraid to know you. tick.

Should I be writing it here? Maybe? It's a teaser for you. Saying things in a circle, hoping that there's a possiblity that you'll read it and understand because you know I'm too proud and scared to say anything else to you. Ni zhen de rang wo jue de hen xin ku.

I feel like I'm playing pepsi cola all the time. Jumping forward. Jumping backwards.

Maybe some things are better left unspoken. In my case, it's half-spoken.


Another 'box'.